DearestU: Why nothing?

"Nothing"

[Verse 1]
Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet

They say a few drinks will help me to forget her
But after one too many I know that I'll never
Only they can’t see where this is gonna end
They all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense

[Chorus]
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind, turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I’ll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they’re slurred
So I, dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing (nothing, nothing, nothing)

[Verse 2]
So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if we're face to face then she'll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I'm hurting, she'll take me back for sure

[Chorus]
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind, turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I’ll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they’re slurred
So I, dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing (nothing, nothing)

She said nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Ohh, sometimes love's intoxicating
Ohh, you're coming down, your hands are shaking
When you realize there's no one waiting

Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her

[Chorus]
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind, turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I’ll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they’re slurred
So I, dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing (nothing, nothing)

She said nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing, nothing)

I got nothing [x3]

DearestU: I'm passed taking baby steps

DearestU,

I'm tired waiting for you to say something.

So please say something soon. Please?

I'm considering taking longer strides; we both know that crossing finish line earlier is such temptation.

DearestU, Yes I'm a Fool

DearestU,

I'am fool Yes.  And this says it all, courtesy of Christina Aguilera and Blake Shelton:

 

Uh
Eh

Another shot of whiskey please bartender
Keep it coming 'til I don't remember at all
How bad it hurts when you're gone (no, no, no, no)

Turn the music up a little bit louder
Just gotta get past the midnight hour (uh, huh)
Maybe tomorrow it won't be this hard

Who am I kidding?
I know what I'm missing

Oh, I had my heart set on you
But nothing else hurts like you do
Who knew that love was so cruel (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I waited and waited so long
For someone who'll never come home
It's my fault to think you'll be true (yeah, yeah)
I'm just a fool
(Yeah)

[Blake Shelton]
I say that I don't care and walk away, whatever
And I tell myself we were bad together (uh, huh)
But that's just me trying to move on without you

But who am I kidding?
I know what I'm missing

I, I had my heart set on you
But nothing else hurts like you do
Who knew that love was so cruel (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I waited and waited so long
For someone who'll never come home
It's my fault to think you'll be true (yeah, yeah)
I'm just a fool

For holding onto something that's
Never ever gonna come back
I can't accept that it's lost

I should've let it go
Held my tongue
Kept my big mouth shut
'Cause now everything is just wrong, wrong, wrong

I'm just a fool
A fool for you
I'm just a fool

I, I had my heart set on you (uh)
But nothing else hurts like you do
Who knew that love was so cruel (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I waited and waited so long
For someone who'll never come home
It's my fault to think you'll be true (yeah, yeah)
I'm just a fool
I'm just a fool
I'm just a fool

It's my fault to think you'll be true (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'm just a fool

(c) http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/christinaaguilera/justafool.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JHb_ps-JtaM

DearestU: This is my all time low.

DearestU.

This is my all time lowest point in my career. I feel like I've reached the deepest pit of disgrace and incompetence in my work, and instead  of feeling that when you had reached the lowest be glad cause there is no other way but to go up; I'm feeling that i can dig deeper than where I am now. I'm becoming an epic fail in all proportions.

I'm losing clients' trust, they are dissatisfied, my team's morale is down, my manager is so frustrated at me, and I haven't got a good sleep in the past 2 months. A 5 hour sleep is becoming a very precious commodity, I can't afford. And worst of all, instead of fucosing more than ever, when I faced facebook's status bar asking "   What's on your Mind?"

I've got a three letter respond and posted: YOU

DearestU I Hope you're doing well

DearestU,

Other than than. I have nothing to say to you.
I'm starting to get used to this.

DearestU I MISS YOU. BIG TIME.

DearestU I'd dated someone after I wrote that first blog.

DearestU


I know you'll say: F*ck!


What?!  Like hell yah! what have I done?

We always knew I am the spontaneous one in that relationship.  But am I really this spontanoeous? I don't know, all i know is that I really needed you  and your hands to hold earlier and you and your hands weren't just there earlier and I only have myself to blame.

I don't wan't to propose a valid excuse for what I had done because in all senses it is wrong but somehow it felt so right. I raise both hands and surrended in advance  to all possible curse words you could throw at me.

But P.S. #CaptainAmerica movie was really awesome, best of the #avengers.  In the middle of the clip you will be forgetting it's a superhero movie, and it feel james bondnic and sherlock in some senses.

Shit what am I doing? I guess I have to stop this for a moment. Why am I writing you this?

This is not to prove to you that I really am decided in moving on or I can find a replacement easily, because it wasn't really a romatic date, but more of hey can you be my next movie buddy? We didn't even have dinner. Just movie.

Oh my God why am I so defensive?  I really have to stop this.

Have to work now. Or my triple espresso shots we'll really go to waste.

Oh my God i forget to mention, we had coffee too.

But nothing really romantic. It's more of a finding a convenient meeting place for strangers knowing each other personally for the first time.

Oh my God ! Did I just mention stranger?  No we're actually virtual friends for a long time.

I have to stop this. Have to work now.

P.S.  This is really the last real post script for tonight:  I really missed U.  Nothing beats holding your hand in a theather and you checking on me every now and then if i've gotten slept.  I didn't know why you always do that cause I never really sleep in a movie house, but it was really sweet. I miss you